Well, one thing I've been thinking about a lot are worries. Despite really being carefree and not really having any responsibilities to attend to in the middle of my summer break right now, I tend to worry about stuff all the time. I worry about making the commute to school everyday this upcoming year, how I'm going to pay off my loans after grad school, what kind of job I'll be able to find after school, how my parents will fare working until my sister and I are done with school -- things like that. I don't know if I really have any solutions to these worries because there's no complete way for me to attack these issues at the present time. What I do know is that I worry way too much about all these issues and many more in any given day. But at the end of the day, I feel proud of myself in that I figure to myself "it'll turn out okay and I just let it go." I think that a lot of people are unable to let go of their worries and are stressed out about it. Actually, I just realized I'm plagiarizing this idea...lol. I read something about this before in college. It was in this book called "Why Zebras Don't Get Ulcers" (I just went to get the book because I didn't remember the book title haha) and it stated an idea along the lines that stress is caused by perceptions of problems or hardships in our life being larger than they are because our minds perceive them that way. I thought it was a bunch of baloney at the time, but it makes a whole lot of sense. Most of the time, if I take a step back, I can't help but laugh that I'm worried about such things. At the end of the day, things will work themselves out because I won't let myself completely fail at the things that I can control and for the things that I can't control...I shouldn't really worry too much about them. I guess what I'm trying to say is that I've taken on this outlook where I do worry about stuff, but I try to reduce the magnitude of it.
My sister is a doctor! Here's a picture from her graduation party at my uncle's house. I'm happy for her. She just started her residency in family med and is doing her rotation in ob/gyn. I get random texts from her like "I caught a baby being born during an earthquake today!" My reaction: "wtf" It's kind of crazy.
InceptiON! It was a great movie. I was skeptical that it would be good halfway through because there was so much hype and I was confused, but it turned out to be, as everyone is saying, mind-blowing. 
One thing I've come to realize over the last year is that it is a constant struggle everyday to be--to live as the person you WANT to be. There's so many vices and temptations out there to (this is the best way I can put it) mess you up. Looking at my peers in opt school, a lot of them are older than me but still entrenched in the lifestyle of partying/drugs/etc. It's a struggle to avoid all those things because it's so easy to do something regarded as bad. I'm trying incredibly hard to give up all those things since I don't want to turn 28...30 years old and be partying but really have nothing significant in my life. I'm trying to live as the wholesome guy that I've wanted to be and want to be in the future. It is a daily battle, that is for sure. AhhhhhhI started listening to a lot of Beatles music over the last year. If there's anything that is going on in your life, I think there's already a Beatles song connected to that. I think that's why it's so easy to listen to and relate to the music. Also, considering the time their music was coming out, the Beatles were far ahead of their time. Give em a listen if you're looking for some new(old) music! If you want anything, I got their whole collection in mp3s from a friend and can pass it along. (Great studying music btw)
All You Need Is Love
I'm Happy Just to Dance With You
In My Life
Hey Jude
Next July 2011: Captain America! Here is the first poster from comic con. Gonna be awesome
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